USH!

So Sunday I decided to hit up the good ol' Gym before the Superbowl. Unfortunately, I was feeling a bit under the weather due to a late bonfire in SF the previous night, so I was unable to do any kind of training at all. So instead I brought my camera, and hopped in the ring with Pro MMA fighter James Terry, and Amateur kickboxer Rizaldy Celi. I took a few pictures, but mostly recorded the training, and light sparring rounds of these two athletes. I really miss going, level 2 baby! But i dont miss the $170 a month bill. Hahaha. In the meantime, ill stick to keeping my technique clean, but Ill get in shape later.

Video will be up soon.

The glass is half FULL!

Suddenly, the finer things in life don't taste as sweet; Beard Papa's cream puffs, Red Wine, my home made Poke' with shrimp chips (that taste better raw not cooked), Brie, Torta's, Flautas, Avocado Pistachios, Ramen, Japanese Tapas, corn with every fucking thing on it!, watching 30 Rock, tasteful films, Avatar 3D, Long drives, chillin at the beach late at night, Santa Cruz, checkin out new clubs, new bars, farmers markets, hot springs, and finally, bed and breakfasts! . Many of these are first time experiences, and all of recent, but I might add, none of these will ever be enjoyed as they were the first time. I miss it. I really do. Every girl that I've dated has said the same thing to me, " Its the small things in life that count!" I can't believe I finally realize that, it only took 25 years! But with recent lessons learned, I know to never take experiences such as these for granted. I will enjoy them as if they were my last. I will not indulge in the selfishness of my humanity, and will make the most of my experiences, thus creating a humble, open to "new experiences" life. It took selfish acts, and inconsiderate thoughts for me to realize this. Everyone makes mistakes, but it is up to the person at fault whether or not they learn from it and strive forward, or do they continue to do wrong, and continue down their spiraling path to loneliness. I however, have learned from this. I am not stupid nor am a bad person, so I am going to take this life lesson and run with it. No matter what, It's uphill from here, because I've been to the bottom, and I know I don't want to be here! I'm taking all these negatives and turning them into positives by changing my ways. 2 weeks ago I stated that 2010 is off to a great start, and is going to be my year! Even after everything that has happened recently, I think it is all for the best! 2010 is still a great year, and I just had a major breakthrough! Life is good.

A Letter of Obviousness

Dear you,
in my everlasting effort to make you proud and love me, I have failed. Life, and it's persistent path of self destruction has yet again proven to take away the most prominent property dearest to my heart. I admit to my guilt of selfless acts, and will face judgment as it will surely present itself upon my doorstep, but i never meant for it to effect in any way, the relationship you and I both share. I have become a prisoner trapped in the cell created from my own acts of selfishness, passionate, and controlling crimes. I am not a bad person, but I have made poor decisions. I have learned that you cannot please everyone along your journey, but nobody said you can't try. This is where I came to fault. I believed I could accomplish such a task. For what it's worth, I have no real enemies, and have wronged one individual in my life. I have a number of true friends that have stuck by my side for the reason that I like to believe; that I am a true friend as well. On paper, yes, the selfless list has had its shares of recent entries, but not in the form you may think. I refuse the fact that you so clearly state that I am out to hurt you or anyone purposely!If so be the case, I would not be taking my time to write you. This letter is meant to simply give you my point of view upon the situation and how I am not the monster you so disgustedly claim to be associated with. Certain information pertaining to the situation was withheld because I did not want it to have an adverse effect on what was to be the beginning of " Your" year. Whatever you may think, everything was recent. It was not planned, nor have been building up from past events. You were eventually going to be made aware of the situation, but was waiting for the proper opportunity to do so. You should have been informed by me, not some dumb bitch. I had the best intentions for all the decisions I have recently made. Steps that I decided to take, and steps that I decided to NOT take. I did all in hopes for a better future. However, I do take full responsibility. I cannot point fingers at those involved, I can only be upset with myself. I know what I gambled, and obviously have now lost. I will make it a point to not go against your advice, because every time I do, something bad happens, and you always end up right. I hate that. Well this is the end, I wish you luck on your ventures, as i doubt you need it since at least one of us has their head on straight. Farewell, I love you.